Its been so long since I last blogged. The last few months have been hectic, pressure of studies, school events, exams, ups and downs in life and many such things.All these even didn't allow me to think about writing.
But in the moment of silence my heart reminds me that I am getting diverted from the things that i love to do. Amidst of all this I am missing what i should not miss at this age. I have been so busy with my studies, thinking about others and making others happy, i forgot what I am, and what I am missing.
Time fleets with a blink. Today when I sit beside a window sill and see the rain falling and see the kids making their paper boats float in the water,I go back to the time when I was a cute little kid.
The memories are blurred but I do remember certain things.
Those days i had little knowledge about outside world and was unaware of the pressure and the worries which I face everyday at present. I was a toy to those who love me the most even today. From one lap to another I was passed like a 'pillow' but with an extra care. I know Its funny.!!
Being the first child of my family I got pampered, demands got fulfilled, parents gave me all the joy and happiness without me even saying a word. They understood just by looking at my eyes what my dreams were at that moment and today I am so confused as what to do in future. Those days were simpler and as we grow up we make our life so 'complicated'.
The negative reels fell short to capture the mesmerizing memories of the childhood and today we don't even have time to pose for a picture. When we click pictures today we do it for fun but we never realized we are making beautiful memories.
Sitting on my Dad's shoulder, lying on mother's lap, fighting with siblings, felt like I am enjoying in the Paradise. It was a idyllic state for me.
Being only a teenager i miss my mom feeding me, my dads scolding, my brother irritating me. I have not yet stepped into college and this is the scenario and I wonder what will happen when i step into college and will be extremely busy in making my career. Is this just a beginning?
As always being a late learner i realized that we won't get a life to live again so its better that apart from fulfilling our dreams and reaching our goals, live life and enjoy life. Whenever we are free we should just spent some time with our parents, with ourselves, with friends , and forget everything else. Then again in our old age when we sit near window sill we should have a smile on our face while going back into the time when we were young.
OUR LIFE SHOULD BE WORTH WATCHING...KYUNKI ZINDAGI NAA MILEGI DOOBARA AND KYA PATA KAL HO NA HO. THEREFORE LIVE EACH DAY LIKE ITS YOUR LAST DAY.!!
'some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end,
life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing whats going to happen next.
Delicious ambiguity...'
Gilda Radner