What I fear is unusual but deep. I fear relations be it any kind.
I fear getting attached to people. The ones whom I have been close to have parted away. I have begun to consider it a waste of time.
It really makes you sad when someone close to your heart parts and its begun to cripple me.
I sometimes wonder whether it is my fault, but i don't think it is, because if it had been , I would have sorted things out. Its those sudden things that happen. A person suddenly decides to let go and leaves without even a chance of sorting things out.
It hurts me deep and creates a burn in my soul.
Considering what is happening I find these lines apt:
" Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together.
For the pillars of the temple stand apart.
And the oak tree and cypress grow,
Not in each other's shadow."
I have learnt to make friends but not get too attached to them, maybe even fall in love but not inform them about it. A fear that is deep seated within me is Love. It is beautiful but too delicate.
The heart is like a fragile peace of sculpture. I am afraid of giving it to someone, cause they might suddenly decide to go away and I would not able to prevent it. I am afraid to get involved in the delicate layers of love.
The deeper love of the heart is just like a breeze that comes into your room, brings freshness and coolness and then it's gone. You cannot catch hold the wind in your fist.
It reminds me if these lines:
" A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Naah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come to your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave."
I fear getting attached to people. The ones whom I have been close to have parted away. I have begun to consider it a waste of time.
It really makes you sad when someone close to your heart parts and its begun to cripple me.
I sometimes wonder whether it is my fault, but i don't think it is, because if it had been , I would have sorted things out. Its those sudden things that happen. A person suddenly decides to let go and leaves without even a chance of sorting things out.
It hurts me deep and creates a burn in my soul.
Considering what is happening I find these lines apt:
" Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together.
For the pillars of the temple stand apart.
And the oak tree and cypress grow,
Not in each other's shadow."
I have learnt to make friends but not get too attached to them, maybe even fall in love but not inform them about it. A fear that is deep seated within me is Love. It is beautiful but too delicate.
The heart is like a fragile peace of sculpture. I am afraid of giving it to someone, cause they might suddenly decide to go away and I would not able to prevent it. I am afraid to get involved in the delicate layers of love.
The deeper love of the heart is just like a breeze that comes into your room, brings freshness and coolness and then it's gone. You cannot catch hold the wind in your fist.
It reminds me if these lines:
" A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Naah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come to your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave."
Your feelings are so moving/touching and truely resonating at the node of 'where the ' rubber meets the road '. i so feel your pains and heartful yearning for the fullness of passion and inter-course { harmoniously flowing together merrily } . And your experiences have been painfull , so their are energies of your passion that are in fright/fear and in recluse . Your words are immenseley meaningful and beautifully here i would love to share my digestion of breakups that so keep my heart at its strongest . And i also saw love-connections like our single canoes drifting down stream ; and occassionaly our canoe/space has the opportunity/dream of intimacy with heart passion with another canoe . Inevitably , all canoes are meant to float back on their path and our lover is gone . Dang ! So i have no expectation , its only a blessed encounter and all is perfect . And by realizing the nature of our opportunity { what our ideal role is } , we give each other 140 % of our heart . The strongest energies we have . And it shows dramatically with intense emotional/spirit fullness . Full passion lives in the moment ; and we must dis-allow all interferences from our past or future , as they are seriously deleterious to us in fully being&sharing our passion . It is our magical-spirit connection ; we can choose 140% . { specially as we let go of the pain constructs that we hold and experience } . The heart thrives at 140% and i want that for you ; and i know you are at 160% :-} . Your post is such a magnificent gift ; so rich , so meaningful ,so tender , so incredibly told and an epic exploration of our heart's most exquisite yearning and pain - your passion touches me beautfully . i thank you . i do love you ~ admire-appreciate-feel great with your companionship-so inspired- so heart warmed- .... , caverly
ReplyDeleteThanks a tonne :) it means a lot. Basically I am speechless. So thank you from the bottom of my heart.
ReplyDeleteAmazingly written miss blogger
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